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Tragically Human State

by Deathdealer.

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1.
Rat's Nest 02:26
My head is fucking spinning I can’t replace lost time It’s like the last four years came and went without the decency to say goodbye When I search for meaning inside this constant mental compromise I’m trying not to take for granted the fleeting nights I fucking feel alive The same places keep on calling me back again At least I left my guts on the floor of the basement The tenants cycle through but the rats live on Sometimes I wonder if they’ll ever patch the hole that I punched through the wall There’s a piece of me forever missing There’s a piece of me forever wishing my key would still open the door This is not home anymore The potholes and street signs erase from my mind So I guess this is me saying goodbye The threads of time are fragile and frayed and my feeling of comfort has melted away I really wish it could have stayed I really wish we could have stayed
2.
Look at yourself Tell me why you treat ignorance with pride Elitist macho culture that I just can’t understand Are you here to fucking dance or are you here to watch the band? Die, meathead scum Think for yourself What the fuck are you trying to prove? Pummeling the crowd in a misogynistic rage Regurgitate clichés with every single thing you say All your insecurities you publically display A meathead with a microphone is leading you astray Speak for yourself It’s not a fucking contest.
3.
Lies once hidden by the night become clear when I tear out your eyes So now I’ll replace mine, to see inside your mind I’ll take just one more life, then I’ll be satisfied Forever ostracized Dying beats living when you’re plagued with a curse To suck up all the pain of your worst enemies It makes the shame feel so much worse My rotting flesh and broken heart wither away with time And as the ages slipped away, I watched my friends and family die Now all that’s left for me is this burning in my chest To feed this evil from an ancient past so I can lay myself to rest Preying on the souls of criminals preserves my body But in the end it’s really me who’s slowly dying I am the sum of those who I condemn, Casting judgment on the lives of evil men So as you’re staring at the beckoning sky, Try not to think about what’s on the other side They say in death you gain new purpose in life.
4.
Spending an eternity Tangled in uncertainty Questioning priorities Just to make myself believe That I’m moving forward Broken thoughts without resolution, Suspended in time I feel like my youth has run its course Not that I’m staring out the window, Trapped in remorse Not a single fucking prospect for stability As these thoughts close in around me Spread so thin between these words I can’t remember writing I’m spending every night treading through reasons why I’ve become to jaded, always dissatisfied I’m sick of places that I’ve never been, Let down again I can feel my fear of failure eating at my ambition I keep trying and failing and fighting in vain Draining myself until nothing remains Trying and failing and fighting in vain I just can’t make a change.
5.
I cannot seem to tame my swirling thoughts, like a blender Delusions of sobriety have slowly expired Stifled with my head underwater Stumbling toward certain disaster Like a lamb to a slaughter I can remember a time before the sprawling confusion, Confinement seemed so far way It’s not the black and white, but the grey in between That’s pulling the ground out from under my feet Sometimes I even forget just what city I’m in And then my thoughts pull apart, creating loose ends And the boy I once was is becoming a man Condemned to a world that I can’t understand This whole routine is fucking rotting my brain I need a change to knock some sense into me Stuck in a maze without the means to escape A racing mind will keep you fucking enslaved.
6.
Fuck Up 01:24
Thrown into life, cold and inept Afraid to follow in my father’s footsteps You’re overeducated, under qualified, and scared You gotta pull your weight, so put this on your fucking resume They said, “Just follow your dreams, but don’t forget that you’ve got to make ends meet.” A whole generation that won’t amount to anything But I’m too young to die I don’t want to work a 9 to 5 I won’t have my soul sucked out from the inside Wasting away, what am I doing here? I don’t want to be like them, so I guess I’m just a fuck up I’ll never be like them, so I might as well give up.
7.
Culprit 02:03
I’ve been shut in for months on end Always confined by my restlessness My body is weak, but my mind grows strong I’ve seen the blood and broken bone, so now it won’t be long Before the truth begins to show What kind of monster could do something so awful? During your life you were a stranger to me, But my obsession with your death makes you my family This appears to be a most unusual crime But you can read in the headlines, some things just don’t align Could he have slipped through the cracks in the walls? Fearing everything or nothing at all? But by the welts on her throat, I wonder if this could have been a man at all Day after day, I feel my patience and hope slip away And as I lay awake, darkness sets in and then it comes to me The strength it would take to dismember the bodies, the hair on the carpet was matted with filth So reckless and rabid, and lacking a motive I find myself looking for tracks in the woods Now I’m face to face with my nightmare But if I die I will die in peace.
8.
No safety, nowhere to hide It’s chasing my demise A new breed of paranoia has its hands around my neck But you would never understand The way it stalks and feeds on consciousness I’ll put my back against the ocean I am a deer in headlights, Devoid of hope and petrified A distant voice convinces me If I can stay awake, then I can stay alive A room of strangers, each one of them is watching me I cannot separate my friends from my enemies Primal desires took hold of me If I could do it all again, I would have maintained my purity No matter where I turn, it always seems to follow There is no escape, so just pass it on It cannot be stopped, so just pass it on You’ll share in my pain, till you pass it on I can’t fucking do this alone It’s been days and days, now lost, It doesn’t even falter I can’t tell if you’re in my head, or if you’re standing over my shoulder I can’t tell the days apart, It doesn’t even matter Because sleep is closing in on me, I guess I’ll just surrender.
9.
Wage Slave 02:03
Damaged, wasted, hopeless You cannot sustain Captive, static mindset Lost and betrayed By giving in, you’re losing sight of what’s important But with every paycheck comes another disappointment Can you honestly say that you’re content with what you see? Meeting their standards and going in circles, Striving for normality Live your life believing in the lie That money means success and your worth is what you buy Clip your own wings by succumbing to the debt You instantly incur on the day you leave the nest Now you’re the one who barks the orders, but soon you’ll realize You never should have been so self-righteous Take only what you need to survive Land of the free, home of the brave Try being fucking free on minimum wage.
10.
I hide, as the fiction eclipses my life In trying times, I always find solace when I fantasize Eyes fixed on the flickering screen, To shut out this dull reality Dark days, I can overlook Swimming through the ink on the pages of a book I always thought there’d be something more Than this Tragically Human State But I’ve realized, that if my body’s just a vessel then I’ll cast it away Half alive, trapped inside I’ll let the fiction in to shut the sadness out, And I’ll replace this life with something more profound I’ll let the fiction in to shut the boredom out, And I will chase this lie beyond the slightest doubt I’ll keep this lie alive until the night runs out And I will run away until my legs give out.

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This album is dedicated in loving memory to Perry Maltese. Rest in Power, XPX.

Available on hella limited cassette tapes from Funeral Sounds and Have Fun Records: funeralsounds.storenvy.com/products/14380407-deathdealer-tragically-human-state-cassette-tape

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released September 12, 2015

deathdealer. is:
Dave V - Bass and vocals
Dalton Patton - Drums and vocals.

Recorded April 2015 at The Office Recording (North Andover, MA)
Engineered, mixed, mastered, and produced by Mike Moschetto

Guest vocals on track 8 by TJ Copello of Aviator

Album art by Dalton Patton

Extra special thanx to Thieves Grotto Collective, Aviator, Grower, Heads Up Records, James Palko, Nick Osbourne, Chris Marshall, John Snyder, Peter Blanchet, Dick Steele, and any other human beings that book our band, play with our band, and let us crash at their home.

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Deathdealer. Boston, Massachusetts

We are two best friends playing basement-punk in Boston.

Dave V: bass and vocals.

Dalton P: Drums and vocals.

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